Hoping We Would End It Well

Published September 20, 2017 by zuzusays

Caring for people with whom you had difficult relationships is such a challenge. Thank you for sharing your way of thinking about this.

Pursuing Hope and Finding Joy

grandma and mom

In September 2000 I was a 33 year old mom to 3 young boys.  My grandma, pictured here with my mom, died after 2 weeks of an acute illness.  She was the woman who knew me best; the person who prayed for me every day without fail.  My heart was shattered.  Exactly a month later my mom had a stroke that disabled her so severely we moved her 400 miles away from her home because she could no longer live alone.  I found myself in what is called the “Sandwich Generation” (definition: a generation of people, typically in their thirties or forties, responsible for bringing up their own children, while caring for their aging parents.)

Prior to this, my mom and I had done the difficult work of fixing our broken relationship.  She went through her own faith journey and submitted her life to Christ on a Walk to Emmaus in 1997.  I had wrestled with God…

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Published September 9, 2017 by zuzusays

Having had IC since I was about 33 and working in a high pressure teaching job with fifth graders I can imagine how difficult this is for your daughter. I hope she will gradually learn to educate her friends in a positive way so they understand her differences and learn to help her live her best life as my good friends have helped me.

Keep supporting each other, finding the foods and comforts you both love, and I hope her flare calms as she gets into school and a new routine in the weeks ahead. Deborah

Stupid Blueberries

Fifth Grade and IC:

Today she starts Fifth grade. My poor baby is sick to . I have many fears and emotions as this day comes and passes. Her IC is worse, she is starting a new school and well so many other things…20992620_10155629532302387_654505758188634996_n

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Wasted Energy on the Battles Against Appropriation and Racism: Indigenous Systems are Resistance

Published August 27, 2017 by zuzusays

New perspectives.

indigenous motherhood

“Let’s raise our children to fall in love with indigenous systems rather than attempting to destroy colonial systems from within.”

I say this because our babies need to know what is important. They need to know what will truthfully keep us alive in the long run. I say this because everything we are fighting in colonial systems rather than building up in our own systems is an example of us wasting our own resources. I say this because I do not want my grandchildren to think that a “dream job” at the UN is worth more than knowing how to fend for themselves on their homelands.

We spend more time & energy fighting appropriation, oppression, and racism in the colonial structures that they are built and thrive upon than we do re-learning and rebuilding Indigenous systems.

Imagine if we put the energy that we use in trying to convince, change…

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The Double Casket of Thomas & Mary Souder

Published August 3, 2017 by zuzusays

Fascinating article.

The Chirurgeon's Apprentice

PM15I remember rummaging through an old trunk in my grandmother’s house when I was a child and coming across what seemed to me at the time a very unusual photograph. It was a monochromatic image of a beautiful, young woman lying in a white casket (not dissimilar to the photo on the left).

Curious, I plucked the photo from the trunk and went to find my grandma, who was parked at the kitchen table sorting through the piles of mail that inevitably found its way into her house everyday. She told me that the woman in the casket was a distant relative of mine named Lena, who had died tragically at the age of 17. “You know, people used to take photos of the dead back then,” she said, taking the picture from me and studying it closely as if she had never seen it before. “Imagine that,” she remarked…

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